In 2016, at my mother’s funeral, Pastor Terry Williams described the busyness of life as being like a stuffy, dimly lit room with the curtains drawn. You’re sitting at your desk, focused on your work, life, and your to-do lists. Everything is mostly in order and whether or not you are content with the way things are, there is a system and structure you have in place.
Then one day, something outside your control happens and the curtains and windows are flung open, allowing light to fill the room. You walk to the window and laid out before you, an expansive mountain range that is beautiful and wild and terrifying all at once…but it demands your attention and you are noticing every detail. You are breathing in fresh air and all of your senses are heightened. Clarity and perspective start to take shape. You’ve been given an opportunity to forget about the “desk” and behold the giant world around you.
Terry was speaking to grief, but there are many times throughout these last couple of months I have been reminded of this picture and invited into its meaning. Many of us are grieving. Grieving plans we’ve had to set aside, finances that are no longer there, the physical distance from our community, the fact that the world was turned upside down without a moment’s notice or the loss of thousands upon thousands of lives due to Covid 19.
It’s good to remember that in times of grief, we all process and experience things in vastly different ways…and that’s ok.
The world has slowed down tremendously and circumstances outside of our control have flung the curtains and windows wide open.
So, as a worship pastor, I keep asking, what does our worship look like in an unprecedented time, such as this? How do we worship at home, away from our community, with social media, restless kiddos, political rants, conspiracy theories, and “Tiger King” all vying for our affections and attention? And when I say “worship”, I’m not only talking about music or tuning in to our services online (which I’m so thankful we have the capability to do, btw). But now, we have a true gift to get to know Him and know what Church looks like outside of our weekend services.
You all have been asking some great questions about worship throughout these last couple of months, but the one I keep going back to, is “What kind of worship do you think God desires?”
Not to over-simplify this huge question, but I believe Jesus told us in scripture the exact kind of worship the Father desires and who He’s seeking:
John 4:23 “Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.”
He wants your honest heart. He wants your devotion. He wants your eyes to be set on Him.
He wants your humility.
He wants you to seek Him and find Him.
He wants your obedience.
He wants your tears and your laughter and everything in between. He wants you to fight for time with Him and choose Him over every idol.
He wants you to sing to Him, dance before Him, and give Him thanks and praise in every circumstance.
He wants you to know the power and fear of the Name of The Lord.
He wants you know His Word and love His Word and for you to speak His Word.
He wants you to know His heart and let His love pour onto every person, every situation, and every aspect of your life.
He wants True Communion with you.
He wants a relationship with you.
I urge you to take advantage of these moments and draw close to Jesus. The world is about to get busy again. But the curtains and window are still open. Maybe we should move our “desk” a little closer to the window and enjoy the view.